woahhh !

okay so it's been a very long while since i have blogged, i have a lot to talk about!

first off, i am in band again. not sure if i mentioned that or not? quitting was the stupidest thing i have ever done, and ive done some pretty stupid things. ive met a bunch of new people who i love, they are amazing. the two people i look up to is now up to four. i am not mentioning who, though, you can figure that out on your own. i got 4th chair. i'm happy about it, but i know i can do better, so challenges, here i come! marching band was a blastttttttt. i'm so sad i missed the first like month. and band camp. i'm never going to have a freshman band camp experience... or a big sister for that matter. that's depressing. oh well. better late then never. okokok enough of being a band nerd for one post, eh?

rising stars (skating competition) was this weekend. first in both my programs!!! whoooooo! second in manuever team, don't get me started, we SOOOOOO should've gotten first. but i'm a lot better than i thought i was! i love skating. i started my axel. it's so frustrating, but i know when i get it, it'll make it that much better. OHOHOH! I GOT MY SHOOT THE DUCK! i passed it a couple weeks ago, FINALLY. only took me like 5 months. i started a layback spin, which is like, the hardest spin in the world. oh, and i'm testing on friday. pre-juv moves and a free skate test. i forget what level.

i've been really really into art lately. i dont know why, i've just been drawinglike mad. my school planner is covered in flowers and stars and all sorts of little drawings. i've been getting into a lot of things lately, actually. it was set in stone that i would go into fashion in college, but now i'm not so sure. i love web design, and art, and acting, and dance, and skating, and writing. i just don't know what i want to do with my life anymore. i could go into fashion like ive been planning since i was six, or go into web design and make money doing something that comes so incredibly easy for me, or i could pursue acting, which has been a passion of mine since practically before i could walk. or i could coach skating, since i love skating so much, or open my own dance studio. or i could be an author! i love to write, i love literature in general. high school has seriously opened up so many doors for me, i just can't pick. although, i have until like end of junior year o figure that out.

what else? OH! i started writing a novel, which i'll probably never finish since i have no time, but still. i have a paragraph (i started it last night) im not sure what i think of it so far.

i missed the start of drama club. there goes that. but thats okay, i dont think that really matters until jcp and scp comes around. i'm determined to get a part in both. but that's not until junior year, too!

i got new books, finally. i havent had a decent book to read in months. i cant decide which one to read, though. i bought four that looked really good. A Tree Grows in Brooklyn, Silent to the Bone, Invisible Man, and My Sister's Keeper. BUT WHICH SHOULD I READ!? ahhh! probably either invisible man or my sister's keeper. ah idk, or maybe a tree grows in brooklyn. or silent to the bone. i swear, i am the most indesicive person you will ever meet. no question. if you don't believe me, ask chris or sarah (skating coaches) they will agree.

my birthday party is on the 24th! i'm so excited. it's at the ice rink. i invited 19 people. i was allowed to invite 20, and i was going to, but i chickened out on inviting the 20th person (long story, don't get me started.) Let's see if i can remember everyone i invited.... elli, courtney, jocelyn, lizzy, tess, sara, amanda, laura, julia, annie, kari, rainy, morgan, devin, abby, haley, mandy, ok im blanking on the last two. hold up. oh! hallie and uhhh... oh wow this is bad. i invited kelsey today, but that's because laura can't come hmm. uhmmm.. ok i checked my list and i listed everyone. maybe my conting is off. whatever. im excited. very excited. itll be so much fun.

i think that's everything important ?
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im still alive, dont worry.

wow i have been seriously neglecting this thing.

a lot has happened, i guess. i finally landed my lutz, again, but who knows how long that'll last. i had two lessons with chris :]]]] i can't deny it, he's gooooood. but i still love sarah. she's still my coach. MY MOMMY GOT ME A NEW DRESS!!! ahhh! i'm so excited! its so freakin cute!! it's bright pink and orange! ahhhh omgsh i love it! I ordered my competition dresses online, too! they're both really cute, i love them!!!!!! im soooo excited to get them!!! :D :D :D i started my compulsary (program w/ no music) and idk what to think about it. i really hate the fact that it can only take up half of the rink. that really bothers me. i feel like i have no room to do anything. but hey, i didn't like my program at first, either, so maybe i'll grow to love it.

alright, im rambling about skating again. back to reality. homecoming is today. i dont feel like going, but i know ill have fun when i do. yesterday was the homecoming game, and the first on i marched. my god. i screwed up sooo soooo sooooo soooo soooo soo soooooo BADLY. i was in the wrong spot for the first half, and then i got in the wrong spot again, and they had to like stop and put me in the right place. my god. i wanted to cry. i screwed up so effing bad. ughhhhh. and it's important i make a good impression on these people, because its hard for me to make friends in band and i feel like im annoying them all by coming late. but before that, i had a reallllllyyyy fun time (we marched at the end of the game) so i guess it's okay. haha morgan and haley are apparently going to make me talk at skating. haha that was funny. haley is hilarious. we were like slap happy the entire time. oh wow. brittany is now my bitch! HAHAHAHA "it's a flute, dumbass!" oh man i love her. and me and mandy are going to be the next american idols! oh wow. i love those girls.

alright, hmm what now? i think i covered everything? OH WAIT. i hate mr. richards. she is evil. im failing her class i can garuntee you.

now im done.

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normality sets back in.

so i went skating yeserday. i was okay but during the third session, something just clicked, and all of a sudden i was nailing everything, and had so much energy that it seemed like the session was over much faster. now, idk if it's the tylenol i took beforehand, but whatever it was, i can now skate again! :D :D :D this makes me very happy, espacially since i have a lesson with chris, who was my coach for like 7 or 8 years before i stopped, on friday! yessss !

subject change. boysssss! i still kindasorta like the guy i said ive liked for 3 1/2 years, but ive moved on to better boys! (ones that actually notice me, btw.) i think i may actually have a chance with this one :]]]]

ouch.

i rammed myself into the wall during skating. completely accidental, i swear. i'm not that moronic. needless to say, im really really sore, but i had so much fun tonight it was worth it. sarah added arms to my program, so now all i have to do is get it down, and then itll look good because ill be able to get into it more. my first competition will be on november 9, 10, or 11th, but idk exactly yet. apparently im doing another program, too, but without music. i really dont want to. i just want to focus on one. ahh. oh well, that's okay. ill deal with it.

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hello again!

not much time to write now. ihave skating :]]]]]]]] i love skating. im in band again. oh man, do i suck. i have not touched my flute all summer, and now im playing all these songs ahhahaha. good thing you cant hear me :P anyway, skating. i re-did pretty much my entire routind. well, sarah did, but whatever. its easier, and i love it. i CAN NOT WAIT until the 22nd so i can get my club jacket. i'll be living in that thing, i swear. i love skating!

hm, nothing else new besides band. OH! im going to homecoming with elli. i got a dress, it's silver. alright, i have the hiccups, homework, and im hungry. soo....

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lazy day afternoon.

lizzy didn't end up coming over. whatever. don't get me started. so i'm callig elli as we speak. nevermind. voicemail. whatever. maybe lizzy will call me soon. but she really doesn't have that much time, it's a school night. whatever.

so i talked to my crush today (there's no way in hell i'm posting it for the whole world to see) the conversations are slowly becoming easier. with only a few pauses (including me freaking out over what to say) i'm DETERMINED to get him to ask me to homecoming. as soon as we get close enough, i'm going to flirt my butt off. ahhh whatever.

i don't feel like blogging.
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okay, wow.

i was very upset yesterday! reading it just makes me depressed! i obviously feel much better today. that was just me venting, let me clear that up right now. ahh. it's muchhhhhh better today. i felt like i needed to state that.

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the first saturday of the rest of my life.

so i went to see hairspray with jocelyn tonight. hairspray was awesome. the ride home was not. my mom started asking jocelyn about band and then she started it. "oh katie! i should have made you stay in band! i should have made you!" my response "there would be no time for skating, mom." "oh but you were so GOOD at the flute!" me:"i'm good at skating too, mom." "but it was such a thrill to see you in the band! now you'll never dot the i at ohio state." UGHHHHHH. she's never just accepted the fact that I WANT TO SKATE. she's never supported it, but she just won't admit it. you wanna know why i showed up to skating, TWICE, crying? HER. skating is so important to me that at my first test, you could literally see me shake i was so nervous. you know, most people look up to their parents, not me. my role models are sarah, my coach, and christine, my dance teacher. that's pretty sad. especially since i can't tell my mom ANYTHING. she'll either cry, say it's not true, or scream at me. lizzy keeps telling me things will get better, but all they've done is gotten worse. i can't stand it.

and now jocelyn has a date to homecoming. with a jumior. lizzy's always had brandon. i've liked the same guy for 3 years and he barely knows i exsist. my mom doesn't even want me dating. don't get me wrong, i amd seriously happy for both lizzy and jocelyn, but it just makes me really jealous. and my mom, she talks about jocelyn like she's her daughter. "you now, jocelyn's a pretty girl. and she's in the band. i'm telling you katie, she'll be homecoming queen when she's a senior." gee thanks. great to know. i mean, i definitely think she's gorgeous, but to hear that from my mom who always tells me "you have a bit of a stomach, katie" it just really sucks. ughhh. today has not been a good day.

whirlwind.

wow. let me start off with skating safety town, since that's all i've been talking about. it was not what i expected, although, i'm not quite sure what i expected, exactly. as soon as i go there i felt overdressed. oh mannn. and i wasn't even dressed up or anything. jeans and abercrombie. plus a necklace. but wow. everyone else was in shorts and t-shirts, hair in ponytails. mine was all done and down. we pretty much just went over rules and things. safety stuff. idk, i thought there would be like demonstrations or something. but whatever. they talked about being nice to new members and i remember thinking "LIKE ME!" because i still feel pretty out of place there. i have two friends there, one of which is in 7th grade, and she's awesome, but she seems to complain a lot. the other one is awesome though. i just would like to be friends with everyone, but i'm way too quiet for that. i don't talk to anyone but sarah-- my friend--, and jennifer-- my other friend, the 7th grader. i barely even talk to my coach, sarah. although, i have been talking to her more lately. ahhh idk. it's just really important to me to make a good impression on these people. especially sarah (my coach) what she thinks of me is extremely important to me, which is why it drives me NUTS, i mean absolutely NUTS, that i just can't get myself to talk to her. like seriously all i do is nodd, shake my head or "yes," "no," "i don't know" type of responses. but no matter how much i want to talk, the words just never come out of my mouth. i swear, i can't hold a conversation with anyone that i haven't known for a year. well. except sarah, my friend. i swear there's like five sarah's in the skating club! let's see.... sarah, age 11. sarah, myfriend. sarah, my coach. sarah, coldplay routine... i think that's it.. haha wow. four, i was close! alright, i'm ranting, on to different subjects.

hmm, right now there's nothing. OH YEAH! tonight i got an email from a hosting company offering me a domain name, and i replied and everything, and then i was like "OH CRAP!" it was probably a phishing scam. so i went into full crisis mode, but it turns out it was the company after all, and hopefully i'll have a domain for HS soon!! i'm hoping for hayden-source.com. FINGERS CROSSED!! :D:D

alright, i'm done for now.
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day three.

school went pretty well today, i guess. definitely miss my 8-3 teachers. even ternet. but anyway,

tonight is skating safety town! i'm excited! it's the first time these people see me in normal clothes, so i absolutely HAVE to look good. i curled my hair, and it kinda flattened, but i think it's cute so idk if i'm re-curling it yet or not. but i'll figure it out. i got a lot of comments on my outfit today at school, so i know that's good :]

ok so this is the first time ive mentioned my websites here, so you will all probably think im talking a different language, unless you know HTML, PHP, or CSS. ive been working on sophia craze for like 2 months and its still not up. i just dont have any time to work on it anymore! but ill get it done soon. FLC is still on open hiatus, because connor still has not emailed me back. it's really starting to tick me off, so i think im just going to find a new co-web altogether, because he obviously doesnt want the job anymore. i found a co-web for hayden source, so i dont have to worry about that for a little while, and everything emma has two co-webs, so im set with that! im learning PHP, at the moment. HTML is easy, so im moving up! so far i know about includes, which makes layouts so much easier, and it makes understanding cutenews and coppermine easier. but i don't know tooo much about it yet. i just learned how to use two background pictures through CSS which im really happy about, because i've been wondering about it forever! but i havent tried it out yet. hahaha. i want to learn XML so i can code a layout for this! but thats not for a while. i have no time as it is.

alright, im ranting.
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school kicks in.

it's the second day of school. i have three subject's worth of much homework. don't we get a grace period or something? homework never starts until like the second week! oh well. complaining will get me nowhere. i'm going to have to suck it up and do it.

my knee is swollen. i'm going to have to do everything in my power to keep it from bumping things.

that's all i can think of.
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here comes the meltdown.

alright, so skating went perfectly fine for the first two sessions. the last session, however, was h or r i b l e . i dont know if it was the 15 mintue break, or what, but everything completely crashed. i started out screwing everything up, and it elevated into complete and utter exhaustion, all the way to i could barely function. i am sitting here with a massive headache, bruises the size of like minnesota, and everything is sore. oh and did i mention im tired as hell? ahhh today was bad. i need to get used to this, before i like pass out on the ice.

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katie.

summer's out.

today was the first day of school. it was boring, pretty much. just getting introduced to everyone, finding out what i need to get, etc.

Although in french, I learned how to say "My name is... " - Je m'appore Katie :] That excites me. I also now know how to spell hors derviore (something like that.) I always thought it was like orderve, or something. hah.

Hmmm, I can tell you right now I'm going to hate honors english. ughhhhhhhhhhhhhhh. I already have a test tomorrow. everything else seemed okay. nothing i can think of that i didn't like. study hall was boring, i need to remember to bring a book. honors english i already talked about. american history... i dont know about that one. it seems okay ? although my teacher seems a littttttllee strange. speech and debate is going to be so much fun. im glad i took it. french i already talked about. honors geometry wil be okay, i think. i like my teacher, he's cool. mass comm sounds interesting, the teacher's nice. annnd honors biology i think will be okayyy.

alright. enough ranting. SKATING TIME! hehe. i FINALLY got up from my shoot the duck. twice, to be exact. not every time, but there's progress. i love my routine. it's so much fun. challenging, but fun. i'm actually leaving to go skating in 20 minutes. YAAAY! i learned pre-juv moves. lemme tell ya, compared to preliminary, they are tough. but i can do them. :D i think i've covered everything. you probably don't know what i'm talking about, it's all in "skating terms" hahaha.

i think that's enough for now. HOMEWORK TIME.
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lunchtime!

Hello all!
courtney just left. she was here for a while. we talked and stuff like that. haha that's pretty much all we do when we hang out. im about to change for skating, it's in an hour and 45 minutes. then elli's coming over for the last night of freedom we will have together! probably not for long though, because by the time she gets here it'll be like 8 haha. but oh well, we'll still have fun. alright, i'm going to go eat my sandwhich now, if i even spelled it right, lmao.

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the summer reading nightmare is over.

I finally found that quote, thanks to my friend, Molly, from a forum I frequent. With that being said, i think it's obvious that i finally finished my essays, and can rest easily knowing that they're done and i can live my last day of freedom in peace. my friend proofread some of them, but i don't think i'll get the proofread copies in time to make any changes, so that's that.

i have skating tomorrow! i'm extremely excited because i'll be able to finish choreography for my routine (hopefully) and learn a new level of moves, because I PASSED MY TEST ON WEDNESDAY! i was extremely nervous going into the warmup, which was apparent because i was shaking, and ended up falling, but i was the last to test. watching everybody go before me really helped, and my coach sat with me as i watched, which made feel a lot better knowing that i had someone who cared and that wanted me to do well. when i found out i passed, it didn't really sink in until i called one of my best friends, lizzy. that's when i started getting excited.

lizzy's kind of been my support system throughout my skating. my mom doesn't act like she really supports it, she's always complaining about driving me or the money it costs, and my other friends support it, but lizzy's been the one truly interested in how i'm doing. she's constantly asking me what's going on with it, and that means a lot. normally, skaters have their parents fully supporting them and helping them along the way, but for me, i have lizzy. her and my other friend courtney, will be the only two i will allow to come to my first competition. courtney's family has wanted to see me skate since i was four, so i have to let them come :P

alright, enough ranting. i need to go to sleep. i'm getting up early tomorrow so courtney can come over.

i am officially insane.

Well, first of all, welcome to my blog! This would be my first post, I hope you all enjoy it!

Anyway, I've been working on my sumer reading essays for a while now, and I've been looking for a quote (that i'm certain that i've read, btw) in huck finn, and can not find it. i looked for 3 or 4 hours last night, and an hour today and can't find it to save my life! if i don't find it i'm screwed. oh, and did i mention they're due tuesday? yeah. i have skating tomorrow so i won't have much time to finish them then, so i have to finish them today. but i can't find that quote! i swear to god i will have to read the entire book all over again!

ughhhhhh. oh well. i had to get that out. my next posts will be better. i promise.